I (M27) finished field successful Sept 2019. Unlike immoderate of my peers, I did not person a cushy occupation lined up fto unsocial an uncle who wanted my CV "to spot what helium tin do". A fewer months later, November, the archetypal lawsuit of the flu was announced, and by March the full state was locked down. By this time, I had been unemployed for a year. (Finished studies successful April '19, Grad Sept '19)
I studied a (S)TEM course, so, instantly aft graduation, I got to work. I sent resumes, close near and center. Month 1: nothing. Month 2, 3, 4… inactive nothing. I stayed unemployed for 1 twelvemonth and 7 months. This play did not fuss maine overmuch because, it was flu season, businesses were closed down. Makes consciousness to not onshore anything, yet..so I kept applying.
Eventually, by sheer luck, I landed something. My aged antheral had a buddy, the buddy had a brother, the member was a large shot...you know, the usual. I did the interview, did well, landed a job.(Eventually, years later, came to find retired I had scored the highest successful that interview) And so, aboriginal '21, I started my job, successful [REDACTED] - a authorities agency.
So now, the existent communicative present begins.
I had interned successful a backstage institution successful campus, French multi nationalist and truthful my employment successful gov came arsenic a existent shocker. Fresh graduate, agleam eyed, ambitious, progressive, speedy connected his feet meets...government bureaucracy. At first, it is hard to believe. People are slow, their mentalities are interesting, systems beryllium connected paper, politics, nepotism, tribalism, you sanction it. This enactment is simply a textbook lawsuit of precisely what NOT to do. Is this truly however things enactment here, and radical person spent their entire careers successful this system.?
The archetypal 2 years flew by fast. A fewer things worked for me. I lived astatine home, truthful nary rent expense, the bureau I was stationed successful was adjacent to my folks location successful Nakuru, truthful nary fare expense(very little). The wage was measly truthful these 2 situations helped maine prevention immoderate cash. I picked up a mates of bills astatine home, but I ever saved, sometimes upto 50% of my salary. After the archetypal year, I got a spot much responsibilities which allowed maine to sensation the infamous authorities stipend, aka per diem. During this clip I had a boss, she had lone 2 years to retire, truthful I knew it was simple..keep my caput down, learn, she retires you instrumentality up her position. Right? Wrong. When she retired I applied for her presumption and this was my archetypal clip experiencing existent firm unfairness. My exertion was blatantly rejected and my declaration renewed connected aforesaid terms. I would present beryllium performing managerial duties but inactive paid arsenic an assistant. Keep successful caput my existent wage was that of a diploma holder (still is) contempt being a grade holder. When my exertion was rejected, I instantly started applying for jobs.
Now, present is the world hit. Fast. The radical who stuck astatine the occupation did not instrumentality due to the fact that they wanted to, they stuck due to the fact that cipher wanted them. First, my enactment has been roped up successful a mates precocious illustration scandals, and second, astir of the skills built present are not transferrable. I realized this during my archetypal interrogation with an NGO. I did my first, 2nd and 3rd rounds of interviews, but the infinitesimal I mentioned my existent company, their faces would instantly drop. Almost like, "Damn, specified a shame, we don't prosecute radical from there" Down the enactment I would look up the radical who got the jobs and I would beryllium shocked. Less acquisition and adjacent little qualified. But hey, crippled is game.
I applied scholarships, aforesaid result, notation organization, miss the opportunity
I applied much jobs, aforesaid same.
Eventually, and inevitably, I deed the dreaded plateau, astatine work. No growth, nary progression. Same wage for 4 years, adjacent little aft the caller authorities came successful with much taxes. I tried a tiny store biz, it's doing alright, saved immoderate cash. After stashing immoderate money, I decided to upskill. All the while, I am; moving fulltime, moving a biz, interviewing for jobs, scholarships and consultancies. Can't spend to wallow successful aforesaid pity.
So I started my MSc sometime past year. Paid depo, started attending classes. This of course, came with dense heavy absorption from wrong the organization. First, they don't wanna springiness study/exam leave, 2nd they intentionally privation to astir "punish" you for being ambitious(?) I conflict to recognize successful each honesty.
The past nail connected the coffin came astir a period ago. I received a missive to transportation from my existent presumption to another. Unprocedural of course. This would mean, deferring school, accrued outgo of surviving (fare, rent, upkeep etc) So I had it, I refused, and acknowledgment to authorities bureaucracy, connection from sender to receiver tin instrumentality a week, effect takes different week.
So present I am, reasoning astir upping and leaving and not looking back. With a stain connected my resume. Even if I was to successfully challenged the transfer, I would beryllium surviving connected borrowed time, it is conscionable a substance of clip earlier idiosyncratic tries it again. At the aforesaid time, I recognize that we are not successful a "quitting" economy, but I volition beryllium dishonest with myself the longer I enactment here. I besides don't privation to beryllium ungrateful oregon perchance squander an opportunity. I wanna support studying and wide schoolhouse too. one cognize determination is much retired determination for maine than spending my vocation and ending up arsenic different insubstantial pushing stooge.
So I americium conflicted,
- should I resign? People successful akin positions oregon person been, however did you navigate it
- My chap ambitious young folks stuck successful toxic authorities bureaucracy, however are you holding up?
- How bash you rebuild your nonrecreational marque aft moving successful a stigmatized organization?
- Is it smarter to endure a toxic occupation for fiscal stability?
TL:DR
27-year-old STEM postgraduate reflects connected his 4+ twelvemonth travel moving astatine a dysfunctional authorities agency. After a agelong occupation hunt post-graduation and landing a relation done connections, helium rapidly became disillusioned by the bureaucracy, politics, and deficiency of meritocracy. Despite performing good and taking connected much responsibilities, helium was passed implicit for promotions, underpaid, and aboriginal faced stigma erstwhile applying to different jobs oregon scholarships owed to his existent employer's reputation. He's present juggling work, a broadside business, and postgraduate studies, but faces organization absorption and an unprocedural transportation that could derail his education. Frustrated and feeling stagnant, he's contemplating quitting but worries astir the risks.
**Yes.. the TLDR is from ChatGPT**
[link] [comments]