Sad N*gga hours

Five years ago, connected a random afternoon, I met a stranger.

We became friends. We bonded implicit our emotion for sitcoms. We told stories.

They accidental coke is the astir addictive substance retired determination but person you met her? I fundamentally got addicted to her.

We laughed. We shared meals. We became friends who kissed. We shared truthful galore firsts. We took 1 oregon 2 vacations implicit the people of our relationship. I loved it there.

She taught maine things: How to cook. How to admit beingness more. How to judge successful myself. She brought maine person to God.

Fast guardant to present thing happened. Not the accustomed culprits. She fell retired of love. Said thing like: Nakupenda lakini I’m not successful emotion with you.

Some things are hard for a antheral who deals with 0s and 1s to comprehend. I thought we were doing okay. I’m not the cleanable boyfriend, but I’m person to mean oregon somewhat above.

It’s hard going from talking each day, calling conscionable to talk, to present staring astatine her interaction and not having the courageousness to property “call.”

I privation she inactive talked to maine with the aforesaid excitement she had erstwhile we archetypal met.

I privation she told maine what pushed her away. I privation she shared her thoughts with me. Maybe conscionable possibly I would’ve done thing astir it. We tech guys lick problems for a living, right?

I privation I had the wealth to dainty her the mode she deserved. I privation I hadn’t promised excessively much, conscionable due to the fact that I saw each those things really happening successful my head. I privation I took her retired more.

You cognize the champion portion astir wishes? Sometimes they travel true.

I miss my friend. I miss having idiosyncratic to stock bully quality with. Random stuff. I miss having idiosyncratic to punctual maine to pray.

Maybe soulmates are a fallacy. But friendship? Losing a person hurts.