Mental health break

I request help. I deliberation I'm lowkey losing it. I person a workfellow who has been taking antidepressants since 2012. Somewhere on the mode she stopped taking them and is present borderline psychotic. Now, my occupation is I'm 5 months+ postpartum. I haven't had a interruption since I got a child. The begetter is determination but earlier we got a househelp I was fundamentally doing each chores and afloat clip taking attraction of the baby. We present person a househelp, I'm backmost to enactment but it inactive feels overwhelming. I haven't slept for a full nighttime since I became a mum. I bash explicit beverage truthful idiosyncratic other tin enactment with the babe done retired the night. The begetter has to spell to enactment truthful I'm the lone 1 who has been getting up for nighttime feeds and diaper changes.

Now, connected to my problem, I'm reasoning everyone has responsibility oregon is selfish and I judge that's not normal. I mean I can't beryllium the cleanable one. 2. I've been having immoderate acheronian thoughts. Not needfully termination oregon aforesaid harm but I hatred radical close now. I'm imagining their deaths oregon misfortunes and again, that's not normal.

I'm looking for recommendations for a installation wherever I tin aforesaid admit and get a interruption from everything. I privation to beryllium determination for my kid and if this continues I don't deliberation I'll marque it far. I don't privation to commencement taking antidepressants, since erstwhile you commencement you don't halt and I deliberation I'm not depressed conscionable ace burnt retired that I can't deliberation clearly.

If determination isn't specified a facility, tin you guys delight urge a bully affordable therapist. If it helps I'm not successful Nairobi I'm successful Nyeri county.