Atheism and tough times

I'm a hypocrite.

I've been a non-believer astir of my life. I cognize each the debates and arguments for some sides of the spiritual divide. I cognize the rebuttals to the "there are nary atheists successful foxholes" claim.

And yet... Things person been truthful pugnacious for maine precocious that I present find myself grasping for immoderate happening that tin springiness maine hope.

Including hoping that there's a Big Guy retired determination looking retired for me.

I'm mostly a logical feline but erstwhile logic isn't providing solutions, I spot wherefore radical would crook to the supernatural for hopes of a solution.

In my lawsuit though, I don't cognize if immoderate deity would reply a supplication that goes on the lines of, "hey, if you beryllium delight travel to my assistance and I'll judge successful you forever..." If I were a god, I'd astir apt not reply that one.

But I recognize present wherefore that anticipation brings comfort.

Coz if I'm drowning and I person nary anticipation to cling to, I tin spot however the logical solution is astir apt to conscionable halt struggling and fto myself sink. Shuffle myself disconnected this mortal coil.

That's not bully though.

I whitethorn crook into a beardown believer if a occurrence comes done for me.

But it feels similar it would beryllium rather hypocritical of maine to power my content strategy due to the fact that of pugnacious times erstwhile I wasn't a believer erstwhile things were better.

I don't cognize though, beingness is unusual and unpredictable. Who knows what the aboriginal holds.

Anyway, whitethorn the pugnacious times pass.